It’s 20th July 2013 and I’m 20 yrs old! Let me
tell u a secret. This is the time of my life. HAHA. I’ve been waiting for this
moment for all this years. I cant wait to turned 20 because I just loveee number
20.
Can u believe it? I’m 20 and I’m a wife, a mother, a
daughter, a sister, and I work too. Are u the same? How can u do that? HAHA
sometimes, I do feel down because I’m tired but thinking of it, how my MOM did
it masa dulu2? Aku baru sorang anak. Mama 4! Mmg whoaaaaa. Best, bukan x best.
But its challenging jugak aa jadi ‘young mama’ sebab ‘ter’ advance satu stage.
Tak sempat nk merasa macamana teen life would be like lepas habis high school,
hang out dgn kawan2 without thinking about anything, lepak semua tu, p study
kat U...
BUT don’t misunderstood. I feel blessed actually. Aku dah
merasa mcamana susah cari duit, susah nak jaga anak, sakitnya giving birth,
pantang semua tu…. BUT at the same time, seronok sebenaqnya! Kita kerja, baru kita
tau betapa tensionnya bila kena marah dengan bos, same thing macam time sekolah
kna marah dgn cikgu. Kita rasa lebih independent, responsible and tanpa kita
sedaq, we learn to be grateful and mature enough to handle big situation. Mmg
aku belajaq x tinggi tapi pengalaman pun penting kan? Apa benda baru kita buat
tu semua kita belajaq.
Kat sekolah dulu kalau menyampah kat sapa2 mst mengutuk
sakan. Tapi bila dah keja, lain pulak. Mmg kadang2 rasa geram gilaaaaa ni
dengan sapa2. Ikut dan dia ja nak kata. Setengah tu mmg x dak adab langsung!
Ingat dia bagus gila lah. Depa x paham keja kita, tau nak kata. Mmg bara. Duk
kata org nu x betoi, dia ja betui. Padahai dia yg meroyan. So aku just bagi dia
menang, pkiaq kata dia tu x matang, sambung buat ja keja aku. Kalau layannn,
sat g aku pulak yg meroyan. Sedddey! Biaq dia seronok kata dia menang. Wakaka
bagi pih kat dia. Dia seronok. Nak tunjuk pandai tapi dia sendiri cakap pun x betui. Setiap tempat kja mst ada ja yg annoying. Aku xtau la org rasa aku ni cmna tapi, lantak ah. Haha x payah pikiaq. Everybody makes mistakes. Sorry jela kalau aku pun annoying and hampa menyampah kat aku. I'm being myself.
About marriage? Semua yang x kawin lagi akan teringin gila
nak kawin. Tambah2 budak sekolah. Yang dah habis skolah and dah habis belajaq
plak teringin jgk nak kawin tapi takut. Sapa kata x best? Mmg BEST pun! HAHA.
My situation, bila kawin muda, bila keluaq pgg tangan bagai org duk tgk. Yala,
igt baru couple2. Nak solve, senang ja. Bawak anak. Ada yg terpinga2 and x
percaya tapiiii ‘ADA AKU KESAH?’. Ini semua POYO. Semua org keja nak mengata.
Janji aku dah kawin. Dah sah. Nak kata lagi? Depends. I think, u better MIND
YOUR OWN BUSINESS BECAUSE I DON’T THINK YOUR LIFE IS SUPER-GOOD-GILA.
Without family support, aku rasa aku x kan dapat handle
semua ni sorang2. Its tough. Tapi aku tgk skrg ramai pulak kawan2 skolah pakat
nak kawin dah and ada yg baru kawin. CONGRATULATIONS! Happy dengaq. Yang belum
kawin, nnt jemput tauuuu!
That’s all for now. Thanks family, friends, husband. Love
you. Biggggg hug!
*These are some photos to share!
Cute dakkkkkkk???? Weee suka sangat!