Kawan.

Almost 3 years. 3 years! How did I do it? How did I survive? I don’t know. Maybe I’m STRONG? I’m not sure. Deep inside, I’m not THAT strong. People wouldn’t understand what it feels like. Okay, what the ‘almost 3 years’ that I’m talking about? Sorry, I  can’t tell you.

I miss my friends. The joy, the pain that we always share. I miss my bestfriend.

Dear my dearest bestfriend,

I might not be your bestfriend anymore but deep inside, I want you to know that I still remember you. All the time. We are different now. I mean, life goes on. Hg further study, aku plak dah ada family. Kita lost macam tuu ja. Sebab? Masing2 buat2 lupa dan buat2 busy. Aku tau hg pun x lupa kat aku kan? Aku x tau la kan apa hg rasa selama ni bila x dak aku. Maybe hg OKAY? Aku x tau. Aku x tauuuu. Hmm.

Lepas hg x dak, aku banyak pendam perasaan sorang2. Aku rasa mcm lost gilaa. Seorang kawan tu lain. Family lain. Kita dulu macam, baik gila. Sehati sejiwa. Itu apa yg aku rasa la. I don’t know what about you. Lama2 bila kita kawan, aku rasa mcm x lengkap bila aku hilang kawan baik macam hg. Aku RINDU hg wey.

I miss our chit chat at nights. Okay aku tau aku sembang over sikit ni. Tapi, aku x bleh dah simpan. Aku rindu hg. Kawan aku. Tu ja. Aku x bleh tahan ayaq mata aku bila ingat kt hg. Walaupun dah bertahun2 lamanya. Aku tetap ingat kat hg.

Kadang2 bila aku teringat kt hg, aku kata, ‘Awat laaa aku x lupa ja kt hg. Hg bukan ingat aku dah’. Aku kata cmtu sbb nk bg aku sedaq yg kita bukan mcm dulu lagi dah. Banyak benda aku nk ckp kt hg tp sudah lah. Cukup la sekadar hg tau yg aku x lupa kt hg.

Jaga diri baik2 noh. 

I'm addicted to it.

 I finally addicted to something. I never felt these way before. Feeling sooooo deeply in love with something or someone so much - except my husband. Ha-ha. 

 I was thinking if I was HER, handling the situation, what to do, what to say, what to feel about life after what had happened, its sad. I can feel it. Deeply inside my heart. The movie melts my heart away. Every word, every move, makes me feel as if I am in the movie! I read the novel and I find it even more interesting! I cried when I watch the movie but I cried harder when I read the novel. It explains more. 

 Its sad when someone you love so much, suddenly fell sick and u cant do anything about it. Its fate. HER life seems to be empty after HER soulmate, DIED. 

 SHE loves him so much. More than anything else in the world. I would like to watch the movie again. Super good. REALLY. Tak tipu okayyyy. This is the-must-watch-movie. I heart it. As for me, this is the best among the best movie I had ever seen in my life. No 1 babyyy. 

 Tak mau cakap banyak, tapi janji hampa kena tengok movie ni. Memang dah quite some time dah, agak lama dah movie ni tapi it gives me big impact, since I first watched it. I cant get over it. Dah ter save dalam memory otak aku yg selalunya, x berapa nak kuat sgt pun duk ingat benda2 ni bagai. 

 Teringin nak cakap baaaanyak lagi pasal movie ni but I'm getting sleepy. My baby girl is asleep. Takut dia terjaga pulak. I better turn off everything now. Esok kerja okayyyyy. File belambak2 nak kena susun, aku dah bosan tengokkk bilik tuu. Bosannnn betuiii nak mangkit awai jugakkk. 

Better off now buddies. Till the next blog. (Mood blogging mai balik merasuk dalam diri tapi kena tggu Nina tidoq dulu)

Assalamualaikum, good night. Kalau ada salah grammar ke haper, abaikan. Blog sambil pejam mata. Haha dah2 jom mimpi P.S. I LOVE YOU - Gerry and Holly ;)

  

Visit my little sister - PLKN Bukit Besar, Kulim

 It was tiring when u don't know where the place that u want to go. Asyik sesat saja. Geram mmg geram. After 2 hours from SP ja pun, baru sampai. With Mama and Ranina. Insyaa Allah, kami akan p melawat lagi kalau x dak apa2. It was fun tgk ramai family visit anak2 depa. And kesian tgk ramai yg parents x visit tu. 

Si comel hidung penyet dua2 ni

Senyum semuaa, pic was taken by Ranina

Me, pic was taken by Ranina

Si Ranina yg sibuk nk posing

My sister, me and Ranina

This is my sister - Una

Its Been So Long!

  It's been so long since I last blog about anything. My house is currently not available for internet connection. Duh. I used to be the-girl-that-always-with-pen-on-hand. I love to write. I love to share what do I feel about something. I've moved on now. I have a new life. As a wife and a mother of a 1 year old little girl, I feel like I don't have much time for my own. But I do enjoy preparing their needs. I feel satisfied. This is me, and my new life. I have a family to takes care of. I rarely use English now, so I think I better start improving my English again. I think my English is horrible. 


  I currently work at a law firm. This is my 3rd month. I learned a lot of new things. But I'm trying to catch up a lot of things too. I'm thinking of extra income. I need to find a way to earn some extra income. I'm not that broke but I want to have a better life. So do my husband. We are happy now but we are trying to get some extra income so we will be more stable and we are thinking of moving out. Have a own house and a car. So that we will be more comfortable to teach our daughter how to behave with good manners. 


  I talk about my personals to share with u all. It's hard to be married young but u can feel the difference. I feel loved and overwhelmed. My daughter is growing up and I am afraid if we don't move out as soon as possible, she will be very spoiled. I want to be a good mother. 


  I remembered the past. My parents were great. Educate us to be very discipline and respect others. I love my family. But now, everything's changed. I love my Mama and Baba. I love my Papa too. But why everything's changed now? Never mind, Allah knows what is the best. Maybe ada hikmah di sebalik semua ni. I hope Mama and Papa will always be happy together and I hope Baba takes care of himself very well now and takes care my brothers and sister too. I'm not happy when my siblings are sad and stressed out. I cried, when thinking of them. I miss all the fun and craziness.


  That's all for now. Talk to you later guys. Bye. Assalamualaikum wbt.